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October 21 unlucky Feel sooooooooooo unlucky.. why me? why ONLY me?? what am i going to do now? it's like suddenly you are lost...u don't know what's ahead of you, you don't know what you should do. Then you start to be nervous...what's next? what you have to do next?? so stressful............and so sad......... i really don't know what to do...no confidence , no hope, no future....Is this a test? then why test on ME????? shit! October 20 What is lifeSigh... life would be better if everybody support you. But, things never be as smooth as you wish...
There are times when you are so confuse...How can someone you care do such thing to you, or have such idea..that make u feel like vomiting...
Can't they understand, what they think is good for me might not be good for me...come on, who knows what future will be? Can they support what i am doing? or even have some faith on me??
soo sick... August 14 unfriendly it's either i m old or msn space is not user friendly....shit! feel so hard to log into here! sigh.... July 19 6 monthswow...my last entry is on January,and it's July now.
6 months...i didn't even think of logging in and update anything..hmm...ashame of myself.
ok, from now on, i have to start blogging again..at least 1 entry per month, to make a "history" of my own, haha..who knows, 10 or 20 yrs later, every single stuff that i blog will be something very special in my life.
1st thing i wanna blog is " i did it ! " Although it's a beginning, but at least i am doing it.
yeah...finally i am doing something i wanted to do. and i hope by next year i will be able to test my ability..how far i can go..am i the one ? the creator or the follower.
January 01 escapestop complaining...it won't bring u anywhere unless u do something...like "Escape"
yeah, that's what you have to do, escape from hell! it's too tiring to complain...anyway, things never change even if you complain everyday...and at the end what you get? more stress & unhappy...like living in hell for the shake of money!
why u still stay on when u tell everyone "it's not a job for human being" ...101 reasons...too busy to search for another job, the economy is bad, can't find a better job, blah blah blah...never ending reasons. and why u wanna complain when u urself choose to stay on??
ok, tell me what u want? to stay on or to find a way out of here? everything is under your hand, you are the one who determine what's your future. Be patient., that's the 1st thing you should do. Next, think....and plan your way out of this hell. it might not be instant escape, but at least....u are doing something, something for your own good. November 22 ptptnSoooo upset abt PTPTN !!! i worked so hard to earn money, and been paying for my loan, and shit! all i m paying is only interest... i feel like stop paying it. anyway, lots of people never pay their loan... sigh...why the figure never goes down? why it still the same as last year?? should i keep on paying or should i stop?? i know it's bad not to pay, but i really up set when i see the figure. if i were to pay alot every month, means i will not hv any saving. then, what's life for? to work and pay loan? a slave forever.  November 04 sick of workso sick of work.........really sick of it.... i m trying my best to hold on...but i m going to be crazy soon...i m so stress... i can't breath anymore...everyday seems to be an unhappy day...what's life?there is no life for me anymore....people like to say : "they are free to die but not sick" a word to describe how busy they are. when i think of that sentence all in my mind is i rather die then to work. sounds funny, but that's all i can think of. i know i am thinking negatively, i tried to think positive...but i can't. cause i m really unhappy... |
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