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June 29 fact of lifeworking is another journey of life..which means like it or not, u can't avoid it unless u r billionaire.for those still studying, i got to tell u that you are the happiest person in the world!! it's true, u won't feel the pressure of working or should i say, what u know about working life in tv or biz magazine will never happen to u. ya, all those people wearing nice formal dress, working in nice office and having a nice life style won't happen to u.anyway, sure there are a few lucky person but only one in a billion.yea, and u are not the one.
June 23 tiredtired is what i feel...tired of sitting in bus for hours just for an interview. tired of being interview. shit! the 1st thing that dissapoint me is the look of the building or company, next is the way the interviewer interview me. The building is like shit, then i told myself,it's ok, maybe it's not that bad. then interviewer makes me think again,maybe my 1st assumption abt the company is right. he is not pro at all, and u know what, he even don't know how to ask questions...
ok, that's the 1st interview, and it makes me feel so low. then today, another interview. again, the job position offer and the outlook of the building makes me feel even bad. anyway, this time the interviewer is great, i mean the way she talk, just makes u feel that, yea..this is a challenging position that i am looking for, this is the dynamic company that i am wish to join. anyway, i still need to think or consider, i don't know if this jobs really suits me, i scare i am incharge of data entering, calling customers everyday!! u know what i mean?? i am looking for a jobs that not only gv me income but also future. i don't want few years later, i am still doing the same thing, and i don't even gain any knowledge at all. June 21 thinkingmaybe thinking or wandering is bad.
i had been wandering too much, sometimes i think it makes me feel sad and think negative.it's truth. Anyway,maybe i am lack of socialization,which means i am alone too often.sometimes i wish to meet new friends, have more activities with friends, but i realise i can't find anyone to join me. maybe i should find new friends online,but is there any true friendship out there? i mean most people just online to chat with strangers, who cares about u? who would wanna treat u as his or her best friends? and u know what, they will forget u once u dissapears in the net world..well, what i want is a true friend.
June 13 stupid companyi rent a cab that cost me RM180 just to go for the so call " assessment session" . two and a half hours there and what they do is just give u a set of logistic questions and personal assessment questions. u fill up everything and they tell u to go home. SHIT!!! it's so stupid! this is so call a "good" company do when they wanna hire someone! treat people like idiot! if this is what they wanna do, why don't they choose a place that is convenient to everyone? is having the assessment at a shipping port is a convenient place?? do u know it's so far and transportation is a big problem for those who don't hv car? i even saw parents waiting outside the building, just to wait for they little gal to finish the assessment. shit shit shit! this assessment waste everyone's time and money!at least a personnel should come and give us some briefing of the company or about the career opportunity,but nothing is done! giving out questions papers is what they did!!
to everybody out there...don't ever try to work in this company is u are not the best! u won't get anything at the end if u are not the best!! i mean it! June 10 jobs in jbwonder why i search job in jb.
suppose i should find jobs in kl, lots of jobs there and kl is not a bad place to stay. But i insist to find jobs in jb. of course i have my own reason to find jobs in jb. alot of reasons..friends, relatives...and a special reason. i think, this reason is the main purpose for me to find jobs in jb.
but today i feel sad, i don't know is it worth for me to find jobs there or should i say this special reason is no longer a reason for me to go jb. ..
hmm...well, fate is fate...maybe i should just gv up chasing after this special reason...would miracle happen? June 09 job job jobhow to search job?
izit search for jobs which u like regardless of the place or...choose a place 1st and looks for jobs.
and then what kind of salary should i expect to get?
$1600 or 2000?
shit!!!! June 06 单恋。。
June 05 jobstaying at home for 1 month and still haven't get a job
izit i am too choosy or what?
i am going to get sick soon cause i am bore with the this kind of life style..everyday nothing to do!
hope i could get a good job as soon as posible, i mean GOOD job..good pay!! June 03 memoriesare memories good or bad?
sometimes happy memories make u feel bad...cause u know that everything won't be the same anymore.how u wish u can go back to the past, but u can't.
Sometimes u will wonder, what u pass through..those memories..are they true? u know, it's like when u think of it, u will have doubt on people who once threat you so nice. u will wonder, are they truely love u? care u?
when i think of grandma, i will wonder too, does she really love me? i don't know, maybe i am envy of the others...i guess they are more important in grandma's life, that's why everybody focus on them when grandma pass away. it's not that i wish she will left big sum of money for me. i just wish i am being mention, or being told that she love me... June 02 ...what should i say...i really really wish that i won't write my feeling here,cause i don't like to share my privacy with the whole world but only someone i trust ,but sometimes its the only way i can release my tension or to feel better. i assume that nobody will read what i write, nobody will know how i feel and what i write in here is only for myself...
now i really feel down...its not that i am a person who always think negative..but smetimes its the environment around u that make u feel bad. how am i going to think positive when i am facing family problems, can't find a good job, and worst failure in relationship.
family problem is the thing i hate most! i had do my best..i close my eye, close my ear, close my mouth..yea, this is who am i in this family. i just keep quiet all the times...ignore everything i see,i heard and keep it to myself. do u know i am going to burst?? do u know what is the feeling?? well, it's feel bad...u act like nothing happen all the times and at the same times ur heart is so painful...and ignorance also means that i am being ignore by the others...i feel like nobody in this family ever notice me, nobody ever try to care me...i am forgotten. sometimes, i wonder, izit because i am a "good" gal in this family that everybody only pay their attention to the "problem" one? that they think it is safe to ignore me?? u know, i only act as an audiance and not part of the drama...its really sucks.
job is another problem...i wonder what is my future...what kind of job that i want? oh...sorry, i don't have the "chance" to think that! cause nobody ever trust me! and my future is to follow what everybody want me to be!
deep in my heart, i am so unhappy...yet i still need to act happy all the time! cause i don't want anyone to know what is in my mind...even if i wish to tell somebody,they will just treat me as somebody who always think negative or have lousy personality...well, i just want to shout out :Hey! i am a human..i have feeling!! when i am unhappy means i really unhappy!!even a positive thinking person can have the feeling of sad. u know what i mean??? June 01 他与她:网上恋爱
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