yesterday, i was home sick..wanna go home as soon as possible..but when i back, i regret...i wish i never back. i feel like being control...and i don't like that. why they just won't let me do whatever i want!!

 

i wish i could talk to someone..someone who can listen to my complains...but i don't have anyone to talk to. sometimes i wonder, is it useful? i mean..if i tells my problems to the person, i will feel better but what about the person who listen to my complains? he or she will sure feel sick of me..why this gal always complain and complain...well, i don't want anybody to feel that.

tired..

tired of everything...

why people fight for money?

 

is money something good or evil? people show their bad site because of money! and i hate it...

 

why grandma leaves us so fast? why...is people around here really sad? or their just pretending to be sad?? pretending that they love grandma?...i really don't understand! why they wanna mind who gets more money, who get less??is it so important? don't mind people's business! that's what i wanna tell them...what ever grandma wanna give, just accept it and then keep quiet.

 

 

cambodia trip is a nice trip...hehe.never regret that i spend money for the trip.

 

besides going to great "Angkor Wat", i meet nice friends too..and learn something new that i never know before..well, it a great experience.

 

in phnom phen,i visit a musuem...most unforgetable..its was once a school but it turn to be a former khmer rouge S-21 prison...u can see lots of prisoners picture, includes little small kids...u really can't imagine how these people live during those days...scared everyday, don't know when will die...after the visit, you will feel how wonderful to be able to live in malaysia. 

what should i say?...currently i am really in low mood

 

u know why? bcos i hd been dump.well, off couse i am sad..but not that sad,cos i know i am the one should be blame...i wish to say sorry but i have no guts. i think i hurt him alot...

 

i wanna cry out loud,but i can't...my tears just won't drop out...i am not happy either. shit!..i don't know what should i do next.

hmmn...today i saw my neighbour..same age with me but she is smart, pretty, capable and has a good job...wow..this really makes me feel bad..look at me, i look terrible, not independent, i can't do a simple thing, can't even speak properly...ya, i am a loser...don't have confidence at all...who wanna hire such person?

 

sometimes i just wish i could be one of those smart girls or at least i look like a normal pretty girl...

wanna tell u tat i really really miss u

 

can i tell u that i miss u?..izit wrong to do that?

 

i guess, u won't wanna know about it...sometimes, i just wish u will appears right infront of me...coz i really miss u

 

if u miss me, will you tell me??...i hope that u miss me, but i rather not to know the answer...coz i scare u will tell me that u don't miss me...well, silence is the best...if u don't tell me, then in my mind..u are missing me..which makes me feel better.

 

i just wanna know.do u know that i miss you?...but i will never get the answer. i know, even if u knew it, u will never tell me.

 

it is weird..i don't know whether i am sensitive or i am just thinking too much...well, i know what is ur personality...it's like i know what will be ur response..that's why i know if i ask you some specific questions, i will get the answers that i will never wish to know..and that's why i never ask you.anyway, i think it is stupid for me to ask those stupid questions...i guess, i am a stupid person...why i still wanna miss u. i know u don't miss me anymore.

finally graduated...but life becoming blur blur..don't know what to do next...

 

ai..everyday play game....repeating...so sien and worst of all, cannot excess to internet..siao liao!!...another worst thing..every nite hv to watch the stupid korean movie..no choice..mum is queen of the house, what she watch, we have to watch too..this is my life in segamat...well, i cannot tahan anymore, today go tmnet and buy a prepaid online account...wahahaha..finally a little entertainment for me~~~