dream of grandma last nite, was happy about d dream...when i wake up i wonder,if my dream was true.

 

in my dream, grandma wake up few days after d funeral..it was a miracle...she is like just waking up from long long sleep...it was so real...

 

i really miss her...

imaginantion..good or bad??

 

sometimes imagination will make u crazy..coz u think too much..imaginating something that will never happen in real life. but, because something never happen in real life, then it won't hurt if u imagine it, rite?? since u have no chance to do something or experience the joy, imagination will help u to feel better..em..maybe happier. haha...its true...imagination is just like having a wonderful dream...dreams that are too perfect to be true.

 

izit i am the only one who day dreaming..ops..its imaginating all the time or somebody in this world has the same interest as mine. curious..

 

 

 

sometimes i feel that live is boring...especially working life. every day wake up early in the morning for work, u work n work n work until late nite,and then u sleep...1st year u work, 2nd year u work too,ten years later u r still the same, working. n ur burden are never lesser..the whole life u work like dogs. thinking of these type of life style make me wanna vomit...

 

...boring..work for living or live for working??

 

there is so many places that i never been to and even never heard before.

 

hmn...how to visit all these places and which is the one that i should visit firts. Well, i make up my mind...i journey will start with visiting all the 7 wonders of the world. Cambodia will be my first stop. 

 

Cambodia..that's where i m going! and something funny is when i tell it to others, their first words to me is: wow...y u spend money to "SAN KA LA" place. Hahaha..i think, not everyone will have the same objectives of travelling and they rather spend money to travel places like big cities or shopping paradise then spending money to suffer.

 

Anyway, i don't think i will suffer there, it will be a very great experience for me and what i see and feel over there will be a great memory. haha..and tell everybody, u r the one who are "SAN KA LA" coz u never been to these great places. hehehe..

 

 

suddently thinking of grandma again.

 

it's almost a month since grandma leave us. when i recall, its just like yesterday. can't forget about every moment i go through,from the first moment i was inform about her death until the moment her coffin are buried besides grandpa's.

 

her hand was cold n hard, how i wish it was a mistake, that she was just sleeping. there are so much things that i havent done for her, i haven't meet her since she back from australia, haven't talk to her, havent massage her hand that i use to do it and she always told me that my massage works and her hand don't feel pain anymore...

 

she suppose to come to my convocation, so much stuff that i fear..keep wondering whether she is able to come that day, whether she will feel tired because of travelling. but now, i have the answers that she will never able to attend it. so sad that things happen so suddent...

 

everyone said we shouldn't be sad about her death, it's true...she doesn't suffer and don't event have the fear of death...everyone loves her and she is happy most of the time..

 

how could we determine whether we are a good lier?

 

is a good lier means that we able to make lie to others and yet nobody knows it or...a lie to urself that even u don't know it.

 

a lier that's whom i am...but a lousy lier coz i know that i m lying to myself and i know that...how to lie about owns feeling? when u are not happy but u lie to urself that u are happy, covering ur true feeling...but it doesn't work..

 

everyone said time can make a person forget about unhappiness but that's not true. u r not happy because u miss the happy moment. and no matter how long the time pass, u will always remember the happy moment..that's why u will never forget about unahppiness.